Midnight Thoughts

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Relationships suck so bad. They’re hard even when you have all the odds stacked in your favor. Humans are, at their core, self-centered. So when someone comes along and you enter a relationship and you’re no longer an island and you have to figure out how to give of yourself and consider someone else’s feelings and think outside of your own worldview and having to accept a human in their entirety without any caveats or conditions or remodeling plans…. it’s like a dog walking on its hind legs. It makes you want to disappear. But then what? You’re single for 6-10 months and you enter another long term relationship. It’s a vicious cycle. It’s ridiculous how despite my better judgement and past experiences, I think that this time will be different and that a relationship will be nothing but hanging out with your best friend and cuddles and kisses and Breaking Bad marathons and an eternity of cloudless blue skies. I see a lot of that on this website. A lot of this “I can’t wait to marry my best friend” and “It’s gonna be so awesome!! Lulz.” But that’s not how it works. Maybe I’m being a little pessimistic. Love is sensational and consuming and transformative but it’s a ton of work. I guess it just boils down to determining whether or not the wages are worth the labor.

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